Joe (frankvitti) wrote in excatholics,

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Hi, I'm Joe. I'm 16, and have been raised Catholic. Attended CCD from kindergarden until 11th grade, went to church every week, went to confession every month, and had a family rosary about as often. But in this past year I've really been questioning my faith and now...I don't know what I am. I thought my problem was just with the Catholic church and I was going to look at Methodism and maybe some other denominations but now I don't know if I have faith in Christianity at all.

Anyways, as I'm sure all of you can relate to, this is a hard, weird time.

How did you all go about telling your parents? I just know mine are going to go crazy when I do tell them...I'm almost wondering if it might be better to wait until I get to college and to just be silent for the time being.

Where do you think faith comes from? I've always heard it defined as "belief in something when common sense tells you not to" or something inspirational like that. But I realized, the only reason I'e had "faith" in the Church up until this point in my life was because I was conditioned to think that way. And that's not faith. That's indoctrination.

When you renounced Catholicism, did you take up another religion? I feel as though having these beliefs all my life have made me dependent on something to believe in, and maybe that's what makes it hardest. Which I guess makes sense, if you had something like cookies every weekend growing up, and you decided to stop eating cookies, you'd probably want to eat something like donuts instead. And after all, I know kids brought up without any particular religion that don't have any spiritual longing. But I feel like I should be able to move on without it.

What is the nature of knowledge? Is it sinful? According to the Bible, Adam and Eve were instructed not to eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil. And just about all people who renounce religion do it because they think long and hard about it and decide they can't believe that way. Which I guess could make sense, but it seems so hard to try to wrap my mind around the idea of knowledge as bad. It's as if God doesn't want us to have it because then we'd realize that he's not there. That doesn't make sense, but I can't put it into words. And shouldn't ignorance be sinful? The nature of sin is the perpetuation of evil, the nature of evil is the perpetuation of suffering...

I don't know. At this point I'm more rambling to myself than making any sense, I guess. I'm just really confused. Any insight or comments or suggestions would be really appreciated.
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